Posts Tagged ‘proposal’

The Wreckage

April 5, 2013
Car Wreck

(C) 2012 Paula J. Bishop

I am already behind. I could not seem to get any traction on writing a short (250-300 word) description of Chapter 2. I started with 51 words and got to about 84, after adding, deleting, moving, deleting, and adding. So I distracted myself with doing some work on the show I’m music directing and prepping for the classes I teach. At the end of the day, I felt defeated, like the abandoned and burned shell of the car above. I wanted to walk away, just like the owner of this car did.

But Thursday came and I got back on the road again. I slogged through my mess of thoughts and ideas concerning Chapter 2 and finally finished the summary. Now I’m on to Chapter 3. I’m a day behind and today is a short writing day because of rehearsals and other commitments. I’m hoping somewhere along the way I can make up some time.

 

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What I Want for Christmas

December 8, 2008

I want my qualifying exams all done and passed.

I want my proposal to be approved.

I want to make contact with people who were involved with the early days of the Everly Brothers.

I want to make contact with anyone who knew (knows) the brother duets in country music that preceded the Everly Brothers.

I want to talk to people who actually heard the Everly Brothers live or on the radio or bought their records back in the day.

I want to talk to other people who sing in duets about their experiences, how it feels, what makes it special, what makes it hard, and so on.

I want to make my family happy.

I want world peace.

I’m bound to get something from this list.

I’m Stuck

September 15, 2008

I am writing my dissertation proposal. I know boat loads about my topic. When I go out for my run every day, I practically write chapters in my head. But I can’t seem to get my proposal done. I have a lot on paper, but I am convinced it’s all in the wrong order or it’s not clever enough or convincing enough or it lacks clarity. I read what I have and think what exquisite crap I have committed to the page. And all of this self-loathing has given me the proverbial writer’s block. I am frozen in place. I’ve tried my usual tricks: do housework, re-organize my office, torture my family with endless moaning about my lack of writing skill, go running, do yoga, listen to loud music, soft music, classical, rap, country, sit in silence. Nothing is working. Lest I spend the remainder of my days searching the internet for funny Sarah Palin videos with glassy eyes and drool leaking out the side of my mouth, I have to find a solution quick.

Then I read this blog by Jonathan Bellman, The Writer in the Mirror and another one by Phil Ford, Adventures in Bad Writing. And I was reminded that, even though I think me and my problems are pretty darn special, I am not unusual. I am not even in an unusual spot. I am not the only with the hair shirt and I won’t be the last. 

So I kind of feel better. Still wish I could make a lit. review flow and that my thoughts would magically reorganize themselves on paper and sound “wicked smaht.” In the meantime, I’ll just keep doing laundry and know that I have company.